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StarsYou fill me up with bubbles,Stars by puddlethecat
dreams and futures floating for me.
Using a line of chalk to draw my life plans on me,
outlining where we can go together.
Stars scribbled across my forehead,
highway across my belly.
Breathing in the cars, making a map of our love.
Our Star A pale pink orb that bobs on the surface of the horizon. Reluctance to leave so quickly shown in every surrounding of it's hazy retreat. As the last edges glow, it kisses the day goodbye, slipping further from sight until it is gone. Remnants of it's descent seen in it's path. A hot pink washes over the sky, dulling into a pale blue. Not to be outdone, a whitish sphere clings, parallel, to it's most beloved star. Slowly, silently, surely painting a wide mural of it's joy to be present across a navy blue dome. Dotted with the millennia of baubles, a hush sets over the Western hemisphere.Our Star by Bambee-T
As quietly as they came, the ghost of the sun and it's sleepy counterparts descend in a drowsy attempt to catch up with the already reappearing glow of dawn . Fear of not being quick enough drive away the reverie inducing nightlight. Winking from the East, the orb returns, fitted in a pumpkin orange, to Earth's sky. Having done a good enough job of caretaking for the
I wanted to write you a lovesong.i.I wanted to write you a lovesong. by 91816119
Summer rain has nothing
on the sound of your laugh,
little pinpricks of sunshine
lounging across the cobbled
streets of midnight,
cooled grey eyes, shining
tears of nightlights
glowing like stars in your cheeks;
in darkened archways,
hollow stone walls
reverberating through my skull --
back to earth, loving
taking root under the city floor,
breathing across cool hands
in warmer songs, notes
bundled under my sheets
thoughts that last all night
and drift between the rafters
of my chest
wanting at last;
pure, starry sky and
dawn rolls down the mountainside,
turrets and towers
crinkle-eyed smile batters
falling -- falling --
more delicate than down
softly into the clouds.
one life into another
the moon has sunk
into my soul; I am losing
but the bloodl
Shrouded MiseryCruel, calculated, callous.Shrouded Misery by disneynumber1fan
Those snatched looks across the classroom,
sniggers that grind through my flesh.
But oh, so painful.
Fists that don’t collide with bone
but stay motionless by their sides;
Fingers that don’t pinch skin
but curl around your shoulders
False kindness; manipulative.
Cat calls and laugher
heavy with malice, dripping with venom.
Sizzling the facade of my being
with instant, blinding
barely scratching the surface
but boring their way deep inside
clutching at my heart.
Tearing me apart.
Winter Is the Lover's CallWinter is the lover's callWinter Is the Lover's Call by purple-kyuuna
Which, after all these years,
Fades and crumbles in the Fall
And turns to lonely tears.
Who can know my heart
Who can know the dreams
Of two lovers far apart,
Love tearing at the seams?
The Goddess of Night and WinterDark and Cold.The Goddess of Night and Winter by Aenea-Jones
If she had to pick two fundemental traits to describe her very core, it would be those.
But not any facet of the night, no, the darkest of darks, the deepest blackness, not of the night, but the soul, for no place is as deep and abysmal as the human soul.
Nowhere you enter a darkness so wide, into seemingly endless angles and corners filled with all the dirt a life in the society holds.
But not like an unexpected breeze from the north, not the first cool winter morning that makes you shiver.
More like the icy cold that aches your skin, brings tears to your eyes and irrupts your whole body.
The zero point that renders further advance impossible, that first paralyzes and then executes.
Searching for my wingsIf angels are meant to flySearching for my wings by Diamonds-Dont-Shine
Then why am i still stuck to the ground
Trying to rise up
But becoming a burden instead
To all those who pass me
Not caring enough to
I am trying
Why can everybody succeed
except for me?
Am I not trying hard enough?
I tense my back over and over
again and again
Asking for my wings to answer
but nothing happens
except for the reality kicking in
desperation causing my headache
And when I fall on my knees
in tears of exhaustion and sadness
I suddenly realize that I was waiting for the acceptance
of every single person in this world
While the only one who's acceptance really matters enough to make me fly,
Is my own.
venturei said i was going to tattoo mountains onto the backs of my hands,venture by solarfae
grasping as a reckless desperation
sunk itself deep on the shoulders of my town,
a stinging pain on the skin to follow.
summer wrapped a heavy warm round my shoulder
and still i yearned to stumble,
to look down and see sanguine and sanguineous knees
instead of my own.
it was too quiet for the blue bleeding into the sky
but there was no you left in me,
leaving to pause and submit to defeated sighs.
The Flower and How It Lived ForeverI feel your hand on mineThe Flower and How It Lived Forever by Hineko12
your heart beats the steady rhythm
you are here and I feel you
but soon you will drift away
Say the words again
that made me feel you will stay
and never leave me
alone, say again:
you will be okay
For a while the flower blooms bright, then
suddenly, it's gone
The ground swallows it into its core
I can't see the flower here no more.
The harbender of misery
will accompany me here
when I will cherish your memory:
every smile and glance you gave me
Eventually, I know
the guest will leave my door.
Today or tomorrow,
the day will come, soon
Then I'm again alone,
feeling your hand on mine,
I shall again smile
and put my sadness aside.
In my mind,
the flower is very alive.
To be Free To be freeTo be Free by Blue-eyed-girl-23
I thought I could get away
I thought I could be free
But still you pull me down
Just leave me be!
I moved to escape!
The grip you had on me
However 5 states away
And still you do not see
That you control my life!
Smothering who I am
I can never be free
But you don’t give a damn
I cannot be who I want
Because someone might find out
I’m trying to tell you I’m suffering
For you to understand, I shouldn't have to shout!
I’m tired of living in fear
The he might know what I’m doing
I’m past the point of caring
My life is he for viewing!
I no longer want to hide
I've done nothing wrong
I’m trying to find my place
Where I truly belong
But how can I find my place
If I’m scared he’ll get in the way?
How can I live my life?
If I worry each day?
I moved to get away
From you and your irrational fears
This has been going on too long
We've suffered too many years
I may be se
I'll Never Stop I'll never stopI'll Never Stop by Blue-eyed-girl-23
My heart is breaking
My tears are flowing
And I can’t get them to stop
My chest is heaving
My nose is running
Please, make this stop
Stop my heart from aching
Stop my mind from racing
Stop my mascara from running
Stop the thoughts
Stop the feelings
I want to be numb
I don’t want to feel
Please make this stop
I’d do anything
To feel without the pain
Please make it stop!
Where is the home remedy?
Where is the answer?
What advice can you give?
There is no cure
The only thing that can help
Is 1,940 miles away
And it’s you
You’re six states away
Two hours ahead
I’m falling behind, And you can’t help
Moving out When you move outMoving out by Blue-eyed-girl-23
They tell you of the struggles:
Finding a job
What they don't tell you,
Is how lonely you'll really be....
How you have no one to talk to
No one who cares about your day
No one to eat dinner with
Or even go out with
It's just you
And a cat if you're lucky
As you simply watch life pass by
Life seems to dull a little
The spark of they day dims
Being lonely can take its toll
And suddenly you crave human interactions
Suddenly you're dying to go to work
Where you can at least talk to someone
If only for five hours,
But at this point anything will do
Friends keep in touch
But an electronic message
Isn't quite the same,
You don't get to hear their tone
Or see their face
Going out is a rarity
And you find yourself missing the feeling of being wanted
Of someone wanting your company
Someone who cares enough about you to want to see you ......
Moving out is difficult
Stress from bills, work,
BlocksWriter’s block is sucking my soul.Blocks by TheAngstyPoet
Don’t wanna write wholly.
My ex boyfriend is no fun.
I’m still fat and don’t run.
I study, I study, I study.
But I need someone to fuck me.
I become inebriated and smoke tobacco.
My hangover becomes my shadow.
Money, green, and bread fall out,
But who can hear my screams out loud?
Who wants to read this poem?
My heart blackens to stone.
Foot in front of the other down the road.
I’m too lazy to reap what I’ve sown.
I’m sick of everyone but afraid of alone.
I don’t want to be lonely.
But friendship’s on my terms only.
Solely because I need control.
All my bridges burned become black holes.
Dark Crevices.Dark Crevices.Dark Crevices. by KelaLewis-Morin
Little one, monsters do not sleep under your bed.
They prefer to procure the space inside your head.
And all those white lies your mother told you
Are from made up fairy tales she once read.
When you woke up and begged for her presence.
Shaking, snivelling and waiting for her to console you.
You never had the need to perform any form of penance.
As she would make them vanish by only uttering a sentence.
All those proverbs and warm words your mother sold you,
Are there to assure you when she is not able to watch over.
But no amount of prayers, dream catchers and four leaf clovers.
Can protect you from what prowls directly above your shoulders.
And all those white lies your mother told you.
Shaking, snivelling and waiting for her to console you.
All those proverbs and warm words your mother sold you.
Will not help when the demons decide to take a hold of you.
Someone Else.Someone Else.Someone Else. by KelaLewis-Morin
I wish I had a...
A heart that is malleable.
A mind that isn’t practical
And a life that is fanciful.
I wish I had a...
Tranquil touch that never hurts.
A mouth that thinks before it spurts
And a body that is control of its nerves.
I wish I had...
Feet that are confident and able walk fast.
Hopeful hands that have a firm but soft grasp
And an ass that can rebound after every task.
I wish I had a smile that is permanent.
I wish I had eyes that were not so observant.
I wish I had the mass to withstand any disturbance.
Sometimes I wish I could be a completely different person.
The Weak Minds of Grand MenLet me sing you a song of the agesThe Weak Minds of Grand Men by ExquisitelyExplicit
as the voices ring out in my ears.
The words of the gods mean nothing
in a world where you lack faith and fears.
The choir has burned down the church,
the ancients are all but forgot.
And that priest that you trust,
with all your lies and your lust,
has taken quite a share from the coffer.
The world is a multitude of messes,
the kingdoms have all gone to rot.
But while you were searching for answers,
I was the one who forgot.
A lost home is one thing, a family another
but without my power I’m a new man entirely.
I burnt all my bridges a long time ago
when I was but immortal and shallow, thoughtless, just so.
The weak minds of grand men are so easily swayed,
past the point of no return they will float without notice.
The welfare of all depends not on the men
but the actions they take, to bring order to hand.
I held you as you lay,
suddenly fearful you would not live
to die another day.
As peace was shattered,
so was your heart,
You are the SunlightYou are the Sunlight by Sasurealian
It started off like this
When I gave you that first kiss
It took you by surprise
And made me close my eyes
I won’t lie, I was scared
As you stopped and stared
I couldn’t even breathe
But then you kissed me
It shattered all our fear
And made our love clear
My feelings only grew
But inside I always knew
The time you fell from the swing
From the first time I heard you sing
The first time you held my hand
I was so nervous I couldn’t stand
Even though I can’t cook
You still give me that look
My hearts melts every time
Reminding me how you’re mine
You’re the ending to my story
And the happiness that I keep
My life is never boring
And why I’m peaceful as I sleep
I love you with all my might
I love you with my entire soul
You’re the love that’s always right
And the love I can’t control
You’re the reason why I fight
You’re the reason for my laughter
You’re the everlasting light
You’re my happily
DetrimentalLike scars on your wristsDetrimental by mephetical
Your eyes told it all
And everyone who saw them
Was irrevocably enthralled
Like the drugs on this table
Your smile was addictive
Was all that it afflicted
Like a schizophrenia patient
Your voice rang in our heads
Making it impossible to forget
A single word that you said
Like the worst alcoholic
You had me constantly inebriated
With you, my worst feelings
Were immediately alleviated
Some might say I should stay away
Because you're so dastardly
But that's what makes it fun
Because I like what's bad for me.
Tracks Of TearsTracks of tearsTracks Of Tears by KelaLewis-Morin
The Piccadilly lines of tears have ran their route many a time
But never did I know a love so sublime.
This train stopped for no one she was the only passenger,
It was thirty love and she returned every serve like my name was Slazenger.
We were rallying for ages her love seemed to know no bounds.
Every ball she threw no matter the distance I fetched like a hound.
Whenever I dithered she kept me on track,
Spontaneity lustre and passion there was no lack.
The track continued only it now regularly terminating at cock fosters.
She had a free ride the journey never cost her
A penny. She would sit on my seat make it warm
She even made the gravy train stop like a tumultuous storm.
We were made for each other two of a kind we belonged on Noah's ark.
Only this day was no exception it would eventually become dark.
Arguments occurred she was being pedantic,
Shouting and hollering no more Mr. Romantic.
We changed track she got off at waterloo and city line.
Apparently my oyster car
ExistingExistingExisting by KelaLewis-Morin
The location no map can pin-point,
The blind region of the universe.
Living turns in to existing,
Existing mutates in to subsisting.
Emotions have no place here.
The body is in a cadaverous state,
The heart thinks but the mind aches.
The mouth has been moulded to deceive.
The eyes are impervious to lies.
This is the place where true honesty lies
Know one can surmise how you feel,
Those who once cared have dematerialized.
You can only re-lie on yourself,
False deceptions allow us to proceed.
Realise the real lies we tell ourselves
Allow us to proceed
Helpless SoulsSome peopleHelpless Souls by SinRedemption
Only as toys,
They can brag.
But when you
Out of their
Now you wander
In the streets
Why your owner did that
Because you didn't do
If you will be lucky
You will find
People who will
Love you and
Take care of you,
If not then
The cruel fate
Is waiting for you.
KarmauraKarma, that is nothing but a spiralKarmaura by Stargazerium
Representing what life has left for me
Aura with a repetitive pother
That is longing for what's left of loving
I'm only reborn to die again
So I have to wander in my own vast velvet symphony
Hush, my child
You are born to be
A fragment to our smile
Hush, my daughter
You cannot believe
Living with your eyes closed
Karma, that's everything to be reborn
I still cannot remember the girl I was
Aura in a burning desire
To fly in every imagination
That can forever change the world
But I have to wander in the devil's greatest play
Hush, my child
Unable to hold anything
What love has to offer
Hush, my daughter
A dear heart that
Has drifted away long ago
That's meant to be forgotten
A crying Phoenix
Ending up in the same place
Hush, my child
Hush, my daughter
You're nothing but meant to be
A karmaura, in this spiraling earth
Of vast repetitive oblivion
Battle HymnWe have comeBattle Hymn by ElveTheInsane
From a land, far up north
Through the storms
We have traveled far abroad
Full of hope
We have come upon your land
For upon your shores we stand
We shall roam about
Head for the nearest town
Speak with the local men
Put a claim on this land
We want fertile lands
These are our demands
If you deny our cause
We will take them by force
Our barren lands they seemed so hopeless
So we have prepared for our final stand
Our crops did not grow, the weather our foe
So we have followed the water's flow
Now we have found land just like we had planned
The king will demand our lands to expand
Our men now decree: 'We crossed the rough seas,
so surrender all your lands to me!'
We have claimed
The land near this shore
For a living we need more
We march forth
Our men, they long for war
Hear our song
It's the battle hymn we chant
So simple a task
Just give us what we ask
Now we will have you know
You will rot on your throne
We will march to war
Until we have your corpse
The theme of my lifeI'm coming in from the nightThe theme of my life by 19andMugsy
I'll be there by the day
just look up at the stars
you'll see me without delay
flowing like a stream
in our part of the milky way
it's more then a dream
you can see me if its night or day
falling out the sky
like a comet far and wide
appearing like Gabriel
when emotions soar high
in the heat of the moment
temptation will strike
but i am more like the wave
that rides beneath moonlight
on a quite night
i can see us two together
don't know much about our life
into which we do endeavor
living day by day
like the sun in the sky
night after night as the stars up high
gazing at the moon in the midnight hours
walking along the sea-shore smelling the flowers
walking hand and hand and holding each other close
while sitting on the sand is what i picture the most
i wont lie i will not even try
for fear you'll walk away without saying goodbye
leaving me behind not knowing what to do
i know I'll never find someone else like you
how do i reveal true feelings inside
A million faultsInside of me are a million liesA million faults by Jailabelle-23
All twining around themselves like vines
Like Ivy itching away at my insides
Lies I keep on feeding myself
Trying to make sense of my faults
Thus creating and giving rise to more
Like how I love him
Or how I loved him
Or how I don't know if I ever loved them
Does it ever go past my feelings
Of the person in the mirror
Will my self hate thus create
An image a little clearer
Of my hate and self dealings
Is there a gem of truth amongst these lies
Or are my emotions clouding my eyes
That they're all gems in disguise
That every lie I force feed myself
Like a demon with salts
Is just a pure notion
That I'm trying to convince myself are lies
For I have to stop making sense of the chaos and commotion
Or I might die inside from the fact
That I cannot handle the truths
That I am tainted and bitter and what is worse
That I have allowed myself under such a curse
To only lust with the sins of verse
To become the perverse I remorse
Inside a corpse of fools gold and re
Religious6pm,Religious by TheStoyTeller
I was raised in a house that feared God
Morning service. i will never forget when the pastor looked at me
his eyes voided with the Holy Spirit
6 years old
he said with a voice shaking like lightning
"Fear is of the Devil."
homesick for childhoodshe was a carefree little girlhomesick for childhood by WizardHowl10001
with smiles hidden deep down
in her pockets, and she'd only
give them out to the most deserving.
when the quarter hour of her life
struck, however, things changed.
her world was painted black
on accident, millions of shades
turned ashy due to a sickness
that breeds on those empty
spaces between words.
she was dropped into summer
covered in homemade scars,
and with summer, her innocence
was eaten away.
pinned to a bed
like prey, she watched herself
consumed into another
(this world is the 7 a.m. frost
left on winter windows.
and it scares me)
The End of the RoadI journeyed down the long, winding road.The End of the Road by melodiousglenndog
My muscles ached, my old bones weary from the journey.
I looked up and there she stood before me.
I caught death's gaze and beheld her beauty.
She had come to rescue me, at last.
No more pain and sorrow.
I felt such peace as she cradled me in her bosom.
Safe from danger in her arms.
Finally she had found me as I drew my last breath.
Ushering me into my eternal rest.
Verilio's PaintingWhat do you paint this time, VerilioVerilio's Painting by shehrozeameen
Behind those walls as dark as the crows
which caw their songs, laments for scavenging
grinding, vicious reminders, asunder thus bring
the reality of the dream, which you draw, drawn
into it, as if unable to see on your own, spawned
from the unknown; such are the realities which I see
the haunting realities and nightmares thus decreed...
I sigh, as I look at you - what are you thinking Verilio
Why do you draw her so meticulously, why must it be so?
We both know the nightmares of reality, the truth is there
for us to see - she's gone, Verilio. Sinistra leaves us bare
we are left to our own devices, my friend - stop with your woes
like a crow you grow older, darker, colder, starker, at the throes
of insanity you'll wind up going at this rate, do you realize
that you're one step away, from being decreed to a blackening demise?
but you continue to pursue your vision, silvered like glass. Verilio...
have your memories lost their way, lost care, fallen ast
Honesty and DeceitOutwardly honest -Honesty and Deceit by PsycheziFengming
A natural truth of the world
- Inwardly cunning
RestfulLeaves tread upon crypts.Restful by PlethoraFantastique
Restful oceans; tender grass.